Can I just say to anyone and everyone who has ever bought a house and still managed to come out sane and not kill somebody....you are my heroes. I know buying a house is stressful, I mean everyone who has ever bought one (except for those I know who paid cash for one and still had a crazy amount in the bank) has told me at some point how overwhelming it was....I heard you guys but I guess I wasn't really listening, lol. This last couple weeks have been crazy and although Greg and I have not had a fight in like the last two years, I'm expecting that streak will be broken any moment.
Don't get me wrong I am genuinely excited about the fact that we are going to be buying a house and living together and are becoming more of a "traditional family". I am in no way doubtful that all of this stress is going to pay off, however I can not remember a time in my life that I have ever been this terrified. Fine there was that time that I had to go to Gregs and my family and tell them that I was pregnant, not going right to college and possibly making a decision that would guarantee me and greg never becoming anything and living in poverty forever. Now that I remember that time this house buying thing in theory should be a breeze, lol...yet it's not.
Anyone who knows me knows that I have an extreme fear of failure. The fear of failure is probably my biggest fear in buying a house. I am so terrified that we're going to buy a total crap hole that sucks everything we have out of us, or buy a house only for one of us to lose our job or worse go back to fighting as much as we did the first time that we lived together. This has the potential to be one of the best most defining, influential moments of my life...if it works. If this fails then it has the potential to make my daughter miserble, cause me and greg to hate each other, soak up my entire life savings and make me into a miserble , bitter bitch. Lets cross our fingers that this works!
Nevaeh
15 years ago